One Hundred and One Truths.

I thought I would take the time to point out some of the details about myself. Some of these will be personal and some will not be. It's a mixed assortment of feelings and facts.
1. I love That 70's Show.
2. I really, really hate texting and talking on the phone.
3. I like face-to-face conversations, not virtual ones.
4. I'm very self-conscious about myself.
5. I have a fish named Dobby.
6. I'm a HUGE Harry Potter fan.
7. I feel isolated by my family.
8. I'm a loner.
9. I love my iPhone, but only for its apps.
10. I only have three close friends.
11. I feel like I can't open up to anyone.
12. I'm extremely frugal.
13. I can be extremely whiney.
14. The thought of rejection terrifies me
15. I play video games and read to try and escape.
16. More than anything, I want to be a famous musician (classical, not rock).
17. I haven't dated anyone since eighth grade because I don't think I'm good enough.
18. My favorite color is blue.
19. My secret pleasure is mainstream music (except for rap).
20. I LOVE photography.
21. I want to major in music and either double major or minor in photography.
22. Because I'm so self-conscious, I don't open up easily.
23. I am envious of people who sing well.
24. I am a grammar nazi.
25. I hate living in America.
26. I really love British accents.
27. I wish Hogwarts was real.
28. I believe music can change the world.
29. I hate drama, but I love gossip.
30. I don't want to ever grow up.
31. I'm terrified of confrontation.
32. I think having hundreds of different languages is stupid.
33. My friends make me feel dumb.
34. I think children with abusive households should be taken to a better family immediately.
35. I sometimes feel like I'm too selfish and I hate it.
36. I am lazy and I hate it.
37. I have almost absolutely no drive to do anything.
38. I am very manipulative and I hate that about myself.
39. I have many dark secrets I will never tell anyone.
40. I live a very boring life.
41. I don't take compliments well.
42. I think people who use text talk are ruining English.
43. I have intense feelings for someone, yet I don't know if I could pursue them.
44. I think drugs are dumb and most people who do them are also.
45. I play saxophone.
46. I'm a technology hog (I always want the latest technology).
47. My dad is a CPA.
48. My mom's a nurse.
49. I believe in God, but I don't know what branch of Christianity I follow.
50. I don't believe not going to church makes you a bad Christian.
51. I frighten VERY easily.
52. If you ever pull a prank on me, I might never forgive you (no joke).
53. I love to sleep more than anything.
54. I try not to be, but I'm sometimes a conformist.
55. I love Twitter way more than Facebook.
56. I tend to listen to the same songs over and over again.
57. I hate facial hair.
58. I used to be very self-conscious of my leg hair in junior high for some reason.
59. I don't like when people degrade themselves trying to fish for compliments.
60. I use the word hate too much.
61. I'm a very big pessimist and I don't like that about myself.
62. I got into the bad habit of saying "Oh my God" and I'm trying to stop.
63. I think using the F-bomb in casual conversation is white trash.
64. I can't type/text and talk/sing at the same time.
65. I'm trying really hard to learn guitar.
66. I am a very curious person.
67. I don't like when people are nosy in my stuff, but I'm a hypocrite about it.
68. I will never drink alcohol. Ever.
69. Cigarettes are nasty.
70. I try not to judge people, but it's very hard sometimes.
71. Preps get on my nerves.
72. Popularity, to me, is dumb. People shouldn't be stereotyped like that.
73. I have a great group of friends.
74. At times, I'm two-faced. I'm trying REALLY hard not to be, but at least I'm honest.
75. I'm a Facebook/Twitter creeper.
76. Going off to college scares me, yet I can't wait.
77. Writing 101 facts is very challenging.
78. I don't know if I've repeated any facts because I'm too lazy to look.
79. I'm envious of people who are muscley. No lie.
80. I think a lot about what people think of me.
81. I wish I was a genius.
82. I get a euphoria whenever something clicks in my head while I'm at school.
83. If auto-correct didn't correct me on my iPhone, my texts would be illiterate.
84. I could never date someone who's dumb.
85. I think people who wear sunglasses inside are BAMFs (guilty pleasure).
86. I have a lot of crushes on girls, but I could never date them.
87. I hate when people use pet names for their significant other.
88. I don't open up easily.
89. I don't think people should be able to beg for money on the street.
90. I respect single moms.
91. I think trees are beautiful.
92. Whenever I get older, I will only drive a car that gets over 40 MPG.
93. I think modern day society is ruining the earth morally and physically.
94. I think it should be illegal to not have your high school/GED diploma.
95. I don't think we should pay for college.
96. Fire amazes me.
97. I often question life and what our purpose is on this planet.
98. The thought of outer space terrifies me. No oxygen and possible aliens. No, thanks.
99. I wish I could tattoo my whole body.
100. I wish I could draw.
101. I can type fast and efficiently without looking at the keyboard.

If you actually read all these, I hope you learned a lot.

Today is a day just like any other.

Title: I'm Ready by Jack's Mannequin.

Today was pretty much a boring day, but I did realize something very important.
There are days that every person has that the world is out to get you.

I know we all have bad days, but we also have those days where NOTHING goes right.
My friend Morgan is having one of those days today and I had one not too long ago.


But it also made me think of something.
We, as humans, are nothing without social interaction.

Imagine, if you will, a world where we are all isolated. There's no one to talk to. From your perspective, you see no other living being on Earth. You have never experienced love, heart-break, true friendship, or anything. It's horrible, isn't it? So, what I learned today is that you need to keep friends at all costs.

Your friends are you rock, your lifeline, your source of entertainment.


I want to send out my love and thanks to all my friends out there. Without you guys, I wouldn't be how I am. <3

Hope. (A personal poem)

Here I am, sitting in a dark room with nothing but the light of my laptop. Alone.

There’s music playing in the background but I don’t even hear it.

The scene that’s playing inside my head is louder than anything else.

It’s the scene of you and me.

You’re telling me your true feelings.

And now I sit here and wonder,

“Why would you say such bold-faced lies to me?”

You say that you love me and that no one can replace me.

But, whenever I look at your social network, it’s all about him.

It’s as if I am a tiny little boat being hit by every single wave the ocean has.

I’m being washed away just like every thought you had about me.

Poof.

I’m gone.

I never existed.

I’m a distant figment of your imagination.

I’m dead.

I’m dead inside.

The taste of defeat is all I have to remember you by.

And every time I see you now,

You look so happy.

Like you did before ‘we’ became ‘you’ and ‘me’.

That’s when I was happy, too.

As happy as ever.

But, that’s all gone away, now hasn’t it?

You insist that history is only bound to repeat itself.

But when was the last time you tried to change history?

You don’t need a time machine to undo what’s been done.

You just need to be receptive and willing to let yourself open up.

But, no.

You have him.

He’s the best thing ever, isn’t he?

“He’s the greatest thing ever!”

That could have been me.

That could have been you.

That could have been us.

Now all I have to remember us by is the dark memories that used to be bright.

I would have been the man to listen to you.

I would have been the man to protect you.

I would have been the man to hold you.

I would have been the man to tell you you’re beautiful every day.

I would have been your man.

But, you can’t always have what you want, can you?

All you can do is close your eyes and hope.

Because as humans, that’s all we can control.

Hope.

True or False?

True or False? Everyone is perfect.

To me, I say true. America has this rule that everyone must fit a certain norm. Well, you know what I say to them?

SCREW YOU.

I have a ton of faults. I have acne. I have a beer belly (yet I don't drink beer?). I care too much about what people think. I always think about how people will feel. I'm too mean when I fight with someone. I'm a hypocrite.

Yet, it's all those things that make me who I am and why I'm so unique.
You will NEVER find someone who is like I am and I take so much pride in that.

I will live my life how I freakin' want and absolutely no one will ruin that for me.


To my one reader I probably have, I just want you to know that I think you're beautiful.
If you ever feel like no one cares, just remember. There is ALWAYS someone that will listen.